Friday, April 26, 2013

Strong God

It's windy outside and its lonely inside and I cannot sleep tonight
'Keep fighting because it gets better'. That doesn’t mean there won’t be hard times and times when it doesn’t feel worth it. That isn’t to say it will be easy and everything will be okay. To me it says that when you keep fighting you allow the good in and the good brings light into the darkest times. To me, to fight is to let go and allow my Creator to hold me and that is why I can continue to fight. because truthfully I’m not the one fighting…He fights it for me.

The above was a post I made on my tumblr blog while I was having a rough and long night. The next day I was doing my quiet time and it was about Moses and providence. The key verse was Exodus 14:14, "The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." It was crazy perfect timing, that I know only God could orchestrate and I think it is such an important verse. So often we (or at least I) forget how powerful God really is and focus on accomplishing things on our own strength. I was sharing with a friend some of the struggles I have dealt with and she told me how strong I am and how I am such a fighter. Later on I realized as I thought about it...no, I am not strong, I am weak, and no, I really am not a fighter. It is so much easier for me to just give up and let myself fall into a pit of despair rather than force myself through my circumstances. The thing is, My God is Strong, My God is a Fighter. And he fights for me. I don't have to fight, I don't have to be strong because he carries me through broken dreams and hopeless situations. He is God not me. And as a very imperfect human being, it brings me such peace to rest in that and be still.

"Trust not in your circumstances, but in His power to overcome." -Angie Smith

Thursday, April 18, 2013

It's a crazy life but I'm loving it

My heart is bursting with all these desires and God keeps saying "That's neat and all, but I bet you haven't thought of this..."

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Nothing I Hold On To

This song never fails to speak to me...I hope you enjoy it as much as I do