I am so angry and so hurt and so sad. I want to scream and yell and tell you how much I hate you. The thing is I can't. I can't because it is my decision just as it is yours to be where we are at right now. And it is my duty as a follower of Christ to take the high road. And if that means for now I have to keep my distance than so be it. If that means that I can't hear about your life than that's that. I won't say a word. I'll let you live how you want to and I will stay right here living mine. It isn't easy. It really really really hurts. I read these words tonight: "But hold on to what you believe in the light When the darkness has robbed you of all your sight" All I have is you God.