There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man [1Cor10:13]

These last few days I have been struggling with temptation and whether or not the narrow road is worth it. I know as a Christian I'm "not supposed to" admit that I have been doubting God but truthfully everyone struggles and has times of doubts; even Christians.

Since January 23 I have rededicated my life to Jesus and each day I have to give complete surrender of my life to Him. Some days it is easy and some days it's not so easy. God has been showing me a lot through this process. From the start I knew I wouldn't always hear God, or feel his presence and I knew that he would bring times of testing to help me grow and apply what he is showing me. I knew that in those times of testing I would need to continue to hold on to the truths about my Saviour and His Word, and to continue to lay my life at the foot of the cross each day. After a period of having some pretty divine spiritual moments and growths, I have come to a period of silence. Within the last few days I have been wrestling with the idea of what it means to be living for God and giving Him complete control over my life. Also with temptations and whether it is worth standing against them and continuing on this pursuit of Christ.

Today especially, God has been showing me through other people and lessons what is right and I guess, confirming the truths I have been grasping onto in order to continue my walk of faith. The chapter I read for today's class was about Samson: Facing Your Weaknesses. It is about Samson's sin of lust and how to deal with temptation. In class my professor mentioned how it's not a sprint, it's a marathon. Later in the day I went to bible study and the topic was lust. Lust. Such a prominent temptation. We talked about how so often we feel as though we will never be able to get out from under the trap of lust. Truthfully though, the symptoms of lust come from the desires of our heart and as we change our heart, the symptoms will more easily fall away. Tonight at hall meeting my RA talked about our value being found in Christ, how no matter what we do God's view of us never changes. Lastly in prayer group we watched this video: 

I may still be struggling, I may still have times of doubt, but I thank God so much for the fact that he loves me the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. My walk with God is a never ending process; a marathon, but it will always be worth it. My prayer for myself, and for whoever you are, is that we continue this journey reassured that God finds us worthy and for that reason alone, the process is worth it.

"The road to victory is never found by taking the path of least resistance." - Winston Churchill